The winter storm of my brother's heart Chapter 4

The winter storm of my brothers heart

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Chapter 4, Let it go!

(Raph's P.O.V)

At first it was a little hard to grasp, the situation and how it had turned out. Donnie had been hiding from us cause he wanted to protect us from himself and did now run away to do so. How was that for irony? I mean, Splinter had stayed around us to protect us and when we were kids he didn't always let us out of his sight and he's never run away from us! And also the fact that Donnie had involuntary revealed his little... secret. Or curse like he expressed it in. I looked around the coast and realized that his powers had not only stopped us from following him, but had also covered it in snow and ice. It looked a little like narnia, but on the coast only and the temperature had dropped too. All in one little outburst of fear! He was stronger then he knew himself, and he said he would get stronger. Leo had almost gotten hit by a ice-thingy from him and had barely missed it, wonder what would have happened if it had hit him. Mikey had been the first one to recover from Donnie's run away on the ice and had started to run after him with us behind him and shouted after him to come back. But Donnie, being as stubborn as he was hadn't listened and we had started to slip the whole time so he could get away, so we had been forced to go back to the lair and tell Master Splinter what had happened. Now, when we had a few minutes to process what had happened, we started to think about what to do next.

"These are very grave news. Very grave indeed." Master Splinter stroke his beard and thought over what he had heard. It didn't that much, but you could see in his eyes his worry.

"Sensei, should we go after him again?" Mikey asked and looked at our father with big eyes and a few tears forming. Splinter saw the agony on our youngest brothers face and pulled towards him and kneeled down so he met his eyes.

"Michelangelo, you know that I love you four very much, don't you?" Mikey nodded a little unsure but tried to put on a little smile. But it was a smile with his mouth and not with eyes. Master Splinter continued, while wiping a few tears away from Mikey's eyes.

"Then you know that I will do whatever it takes to get your brother back. But we need to find out why this happened and how we can help him. Right now he is, as much I dislike to say it, a danger to everyone if he cannot control this. And he is a danger to himself just as much. You have to find him, but we have to figure what has happened to your brother to give him something like this." Usually I wouldn't agree to this, but I guess I could make an exception just this once. We didn't know what had happened here or what we where up against. All we had seen was a little ice power, and that didn't help that much. Leo took over and put a hand on Mikey's shoulder and smiled at him.

"And the best place to start look for clues is to start in Donnie's lab. He has been there almost every hour of the day for the last few weeks, he must have left a few clues there." Mikey looked at him and smiled a little, this time with his eyes. I walked up to Leo and nudged him a little in the side. Even if I was trying to to be a bit more positive than I was, I had to say what was on my mind, even if it did sound negative.

"Leo, I don't want to sound like a downer, but how big are the chances that Donnie has left anything for us to find. He didn't want us to know anything, right? He could have just deleted all that he learned about this... whatever it is." Leo looked at me in the eyes and sighed and put a hand on my shoulder.

"I know, but it's all we have right now. We'll have to look through that and then, if there is nothing in the lab, we'll have to find out by confronting him ourselves." I sighed and nodded. April took the lead into the lab and immediately started to check through his computer while the rest of us looked through the lab. On one of the walls there was a thin layer of frost and on the ground there was a piece of bandage that was also covered with frost. But that was the only thing we had so far. He must have discovered his new ability by doing so since the gloves had been on since the first day. Leo looked through his shelfs with books and equipment and Mikey looked through his desk and what was there. I walked around, trying to find a place to look for clues. I shuddered in discomfort when I saw the frozen Timothy and walked up to him. I didn't know why Donnie had been so desperate to save him from his mutation and from getting hurt. He was nothing but a annoying little twerp. But then again, Donnie had more compassion then me, so I guess I couldn't understand him even if I tried to. At least not yet, if ever. I had seen his hurt face when he was forced to trick him into drinking the fake mutagen that... froze him. Wait a sec, could it be...? Could that be the reason why...?

"Guys! I think I found something!" April called from the computer and we hurried over. What we saw was one of those tests Donnie used to take when someone was hurt or something to see if we were infected.

(Donnie's P.O.V)

It wasn't the first time I had fled from the lair, but this time it wasn't with tears and was in fears that I left everything I had known behind. And when I say everything, I mean everything, I had left the city behind and was now running on the ice in fear and panic. And my eyes where not filled with tears but with panic, until I finally stopped on the ocean about hundred feet away from the coast and looked out over the sea and watched the statue of liberty while the sun was setting in the west. It was beautiful, and beyond that horizon there was places I had never even dreamed of seeing. I sighed and took one last look back at the city. I would just cause danger there too. I didn't want to hurt innocent people, and I couldn't stay with my family either. It would go bad either way. It was first then I realized that the water had frozen under my feet but the cloth on my feet was stopping it from being as strong as it could be, I took a step back looked down at my feet again, and then tore off the cloth that covered them (which got a layer of frost on them, but I didn't care) and started to run away on the water. For every step the floor of ice grew, got thicker and spread all over the coast and the ocean, but I wasn't paying attention. I ran until I was to tired to keep on running, and then I just walked. Mile after mile, hour after hour until I was to tired to keep on walking and by then it was in the middle of the night and I guessed the sun would rise soon. I thought about what I would do now. I couldn't just keep on walking for the rest of my life and I couldn't go back now! Not after the hullabaloo back ine New York.

"I know I can't go back or keep on going so what am I gonna do?" I said to myself, and an idea made it's way into my mind. A new one this time. Why not make myself at home here? Make my own place. I looked around the ocean where I was and all I saw was ice and glimpses of water very, very far away. And it reminded me of a song I had heard when Mikey had watched Tv about two weeks ago and had started to listen to the song in my lab to remind myself of what I had to do. It seemed to fit so well with the situation, and without really noticing it I began to sing the song loud and clear since nobody could hear or see me.

"The snow glows white on the ocean tonight. Not a footprint to be seen."

I walked around with a sad frown and looked around even more as I rubbed my arms. I wasn't cold, but I felt a little lonely right now. It felt a little weird, knowing that everything I had known was gone and that I couldn't go back to how it was.

"A kingdom of isolation, And it looks like I'm the king."

I couldn't help thinking about what my brothers did right now. Or what they thought of the situation. Which made the wind blow a little harder and snow started to fall on my arms and my hands, by instinct brushed it off even though it didn't bother me at all.

"The wind is howling like this swirling storm inside. Couldn't keep it in, heaven knows I've tried"

I looked down and put my hands in my armpits and the snow started to fall faster and even more came.I thought about the last days and what I had done and told myself to do. To stay away and lock myself away and keep my family from finding out about my secret. Some secret now, now when they knew about it.

"Don't let them in, don't let them see, be the good boy you always had to be. Conceal. Don't feel. Don't let it show."

I looked at my hands and narrowed my eyes in fear and anger and then closed them completely and just threw my other glove of my hand and then just let go of the ice and snow I had hold in for so long.

"Well now they know!"

And it created a big cloud of snow that flew away from me and, without me noticing, made it's way to the country. But it stopped to snow and the landscape looked calmer. I began to carefully use my powers to get a grip on how to use them. I created small drifts of snow and created a snowman with the wave of my hand. And it felt so good doing it and letting go of the chains holding me back.

"Let it go, let it go. Can't hold it back anymore. Let it go, let it go. Turn away and slam the door. I don't care what they're going to say. Let the storm rage on. The cold never bothered me anyway"

Then when I felt more safe with the power I stopped for a second and looked around. I began to walk around, creating a picture of what I was going to make. Making myself think like I did when I drew a blueprint for one of my inventions, but instead of going after the blueprint, I made this creation without one. I put up my thumb and forefinger on both hands to make a rectangle and picture the perfect home for me. Then I ran forward to a center and started to work.

"It's funny how some distance makes everything seem small. And the fears that once controlled me can't get to me at all.

I started to create a vault of ice and then made more of them to create walls to a room, and it ended up with the shape of a hexagon.

It's time to see what I can do. To test the limits and break through. No right, no wrong, no rules for me. I'm free!

First my vault looked like ice that gotten covered with layer after layer with snow and then frozen like that, but when I stepped forward and touched them they then looked like they were made of glass. Pure and transparent. I was filled with a new feeling, and I identified it as either adrenaline or euphoria.

Let it go, let it go. I'm one with the wind and sky."

I pulled out my staff from my shell and used it to create ice, by letting the power go through the staff and into the air, like electrons through a conductor. It helped me to get to the higher parts of the vaults. I used the staff as a lift to heave myself into the air and swung with the staff to create a better appearance on the highest parts of the vaults, or walls as it looked more like now. And as I came down to the ground I put the one end of the staff of the ground and leaned against it.

"Let it go, let it go. You'll never see me cry."

As I felt done with the walls I took a look a the ground and thought it needed to get a new look to. Maybe something with snowflakes or something like that.

"Here I'll stand, and here I'll stay. Let the storm rage on."

When I said 'stand' I stomped with my foot down with a little more force and the ground was covered with a new layer of ice and it had the same shape as a snowflake and then covered it with a new layer of ice. I looked around and made new rooms and raised the room and made the whole thing look more like a palace, than one single room.

"My power flurries through the air into the ground."

I started to make the walls look better and cover them in a nice snowflake looking pattern and beautiful frost on the floor. Between some of the vaults I made solid ice and they looked some clear I could see my reflection. I made two energy balls of ice and let the fly up to the roof, they met and together created a lamp looking thing which looked like a chandelier and the light reflected in the ice and lit up the room.

"My soul is spiraling in frozen fractals all around. And one thought crystallizes like an icy blast"

I had created a beautiful and breathtaking room with a few waves of my hands and thought about what I could live from now on, and around the room was a few other rooms and halls to make ready for living, but before I did that I took a look in the ice and saw my reflection. My eyes fell on the purple mask and what was left of my gear. If I was going to create a new life, I had to get rid of everything. And that meant everything.

"I'm never going back, the past is in the past."

I threw my mask of and held in my hands and stretched out my arm up in the air before I threw it away as far as I could out of a window letting the wind take it.

"Let it go, let it go. And I'll rise like the break of dawn. Let it go, let it go. That perfect boy is gone!"

I made a new mask out of some cloth that looked like it was made of thin ice and it turned to the same icy blue color as my eyes, maybe a little darker, but still. And what was left of my gear turned into sleeves on my arms instead of elbow pads that went from my elbows and down to my wrists and the same on my legs and instead of knee pads there were pants legs from my thighs and down to a little above my ankles and they turned to icy blue as well. And it all happened with a stomp with my foot! I threw away the wrappings around my hands and wrists and from my shoulder a cape started to take form and it was so transparent and blue it looked like it was made of ice. The other gear, like the strap on my back and the belt around my waist merged together into some kind of sleeveless shirt and turned to the same color and it all looked like frost and snowflakes were spread all over the former ninja gear, and I didn't bother walking around without anything protecting my feet. I didn't feel any cold at all. And I took out my bo and covered it in a thick layer of frost on a thin layer of ice and touched the cloth and turned it into the same color as my mask and gear.

"Here I stand in the light of day. Let the storm rage on!"

I walked out on a balcony I had made and looked over the beautiful landscape as the sun rised in the east and spread its light all over the ocean.

"The cold never bothered me anyway."

And with that I walked back in and slammed the doors shut. not only from the world, but also from the life I had once had and started to live a new one as far away from the old one as I could possibly come. From now one I wanted to live alone, without anyone to look for or anyone to hurt.

A/N: I know, I know! I couldn't help myself. I just love the song 'Let it go' and I couldn't help but fit it in the story. I'm sorry if I have upset any of you but you don't have to read if you don't like it. I may make more ones, I may not. We'll see but I just want to warn you before I post any other chapters. Anyway bye and good night people!